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Gimme Shelter

Oh, a storm is threat’ning, My very life today, If I don’t get some shelter, Oh yeah, I’m gonna fade away, War, children, it’s just a shot away, It’s just a shot away, War, children, it’s just a shot away, It’s just a shot away, Ooh, see the fire is sweepin’, Our very street today, Burns like a red coal carpet, Mad bull lost it’s way, War, children, it’s just a shot away, It’s just a shot away, War, children, it’s just a shot away, It’s just a shot away, Rape, murder!, It’s just a shot away, It’s just a shot away, Rape, murder!, It’s just a shot away, It’s just a shot away, The floods is threat’ning, My very life today, Gimme, gimme shelter, Or I’m gonna fade away, War, children, it’s just a shot away, It’s just a shot away, It’s just a shot away, It’s just a shot away, It’s just a shot away, I tell you love, sister, it’s just a kiss away, it’s just a kiss away, it’s just a kiss away, it’s just a kiss away, it’s just a kiss away, it’s just a kiss away,
The Man in Me--Bob Dylan

The man in me will do nearly any task, And as for compensation, there's little he would ask. Take a woman like you To get through to the man in me. Storm clouds are raging all around my door, I think to myself I might not take it any more. Take a woman like your kind To find the man in me. But, oh, what a wonderful feeling Just to know that you are near, Sets my a heart a-reeling From my toes up to my ears. The man in me will hide sometimes to keep from bein' seen, But that's just because he doesn't want to turn into some machine. Took a woman like you To get through to the man in me.

Brown Eyed Girl

Hey where did we go, Days when the rains came, Down in the hollow, Playin' a new game, Laughing and a running hey, hey, Skipping and a jumping, In the misty morning fog with Our hearts a thumpin' and you, My brown eyed girl, You my brown eyed girl. Whatever happened To Tuesday and so slow, Going down the old mine, With a transistor radio, Standing in the sunlight laughing, Hiding behind a rainbow's wall, Slipping and sliding, All along the water fall, with you, My brown eyed girl, You my brown eyed girl. Do you remember when we used to sing, Sha la la la la la la la la la la te da, So hard to find my way, Now that I'm all on my own. I saw you just the other day, My how you have grown, Cast my memory back there, Lord, Sometime I'm overcome thinking 'bout Making love in the green grass Behind the stadium with you, My brown eyed girl, You my brown eyed girl, Do you remember when we used to sing, Sha la la la la la la la la la la te da.

Yesterday

Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away,Now it looks as though they’re here to stay Oh, I believe in yesterday. Suddenly, I’m not half the man I used to be, There’s a shadow hanging over me. Oh, yesterday came suddenly. Why she had to go I don’t know she woldn’t say. I said something wrong, now I long for yesterday. Yesterday, love was such an easy game to play. Now I need a place to hide away. Oh, I believe in yesterday. Mm mm mm mm mm.

All of my Love -- Led Zeppelin

Should I fall out of love, my fire in the night, To chase a feather in the wind, Within the glow that weaves a cloak of delight, There moves a thread that has no end. For many hours and days that pass ever soon, the tides have caused the flame to dim, At last the arm is straight, the hand to the loom, Is this to end or just begin? All of my love, all of my love, all of my love to you now. All of my love, all of my love, all of my love to you now. The cup is raised, the toast is made yet again, One voice is clear above the din, Proud Arianne, one word, my will to sustain, For me, the cloth once more to spin, All of my love, all of my love, all of my love to you now. All of my love, all of my love, all of my love to you now.Yours is the cloth, mine is the hand that sews time, his is the force that lies within, Ours is the fire, all the warmth we can find, He is a feather in the wind All of my love, all of my love, all of my love to you now. All of my love, all of my love, all of my love to you now.

Lookin' out my back door

Just got home from illinois, lock the front door, oh boy! Got to sit down, take a rest on the porch. Imagination sets in, pretty soon I’m singin’, Doo, doo, doo, lookin’ out my back door. There’s a giant doing cartwheels, a statue wearin’ high heels. Look at all the happy creatures dancing on the lawn. A dinosaur victrola list’ning to buck owens. Doo, doo, doo, lookin’ out my back door. Tambourines and elephants are playing in the band. Won’t you take a ride on the flyin’ spoon? Doo, doo doo. Wond’rous apparition, provided by magician. Doo, doo, doo, lookin’ out my back door. Tambourines and elephants are playing in the band. Won’t you take a ride on the flyin’ spoon? Doo, doo doo. Bother me tomorrow, today, I’ll buy no sorrows. Doo, doo, doo, lookin’ out my back door. Forward troubles illinois, lock the front door, oh boy! Look at all the happy creatures dancing on the lawn. Bother me tomorrow, today, I’ll buy no sorrows. Doo, doo, doo, lookin’ out my back door.

All Right Now

There she stood in the street, Smiling from her head to her feet, I said hey what is this, Now maybe baby, Maybe you're in need for a kiss, I said slow don't talk so fast, Don't you think that love can last, She said love Lord above, Now you're trying to trick me in love, All right now, Baby it's all right now, All right now, Baby it's all right now, I took her home to my place, Watching every move on her face, She said look what's your game, Are you trying to put me in shame, I said slow don't talk so fast, Don't you think that love can last, She said love Lord above, Now you're tryin' to trick me in love, All right now, Baby it's all right now, All right now, Baby it's all right now, All right now, Baby it's all right now, All right now, Baby it's all right now.

Superfly

Darkest of night, With the moon shining bright, There's a set goin' strong, Lotta things goin' on, The man of the hour, Has an air of great power, The dudes have envied him for so long, Oooh, Superfly, You're gonna make your fortune by and by, But if you lose, don't ask no questions why, The only game you know is Do or Die, Ah-ha-ha, Hard to understand, What a hell of a man, This cat of the slum, Had a mind, wasn't dumb, But a weakness was shown, 'Cause his hustle was wrong, His mind was his own, But the man lived alone, , Oooh, Superfly, You're gonna make your fortune by and by, But if you lose, don't ask no questions why, The only game you know is Do or Die, Ah-ha-ha, The game he plays he plays for keeps, Hustlin' times and ghetto streets, Tryin' ta get over, (That's what he tryin' to do, y'all), Taking all that he can take, Gambling with the odds of fate, Tryin' ta get over, Tryin' ta get over, Tryin' ta get over, Tryin' ta get over, Woo, Superfly, The aim of his role, Was to move a lot of blow, Ask him his dream, What does it mean?, He woudn't know, Is the most he'll confess, But the time's running out, And there's no happiness, , Oooh, Superfly, You're gonna make your fortune by and by, But if you lose, don't ask no questions why, The only game you know is Do or Die, Ah-ha-ha,, Superfly Superfly Superfly Superfly, Tryin' ta get over... Tryin' ta get over... Tryin' ta get over... Tryin' ta get over... Tryin' ta get over... Tryin' ta get over... Tryin' ta get over... Tryin' ta get over... Tryin' ta get over...

You don't know me

You give your hand to me And then you say, "Hello." And I can hardly speak, My heart is beating so. And anyone can tell You think you know me well. Well, you don't know me. (no you don't know me) No you don't know the one Who dreams of you at night; And longs to kiss your lips And longs to hold you tight Oh I'm just a friend. That's all I've ever been. Cause you don't know me. (no you don't know me) For I never knew the art of making love, Though my heart aches with love for you. Afraid and shy, I let my chance go by. A chance that you might love me too. (love me too) You give your hand to me, And then you say, "Goodbye." I watched you walk away, Beside the lucky guy Oh, you'll never ever know The one who loved you so. Well, you don't know me (For I never knew the art of making love, ) (Though my heart aches with love for you. ) Afraid and shy, I let my chance go by. A chance that you might love me too. (love me too) Oh, you give your hand to me, And then you say, "Goodbye." I watched you walk away, Beside the lucky guy Oh, you'll never ever know The one who loved you so. Well, you don't know me (you don't love me, you don't know me)

Georgia on my mind

Georgia, Georgia, The whole day through Just an old sweet song Keeps Georgia on my mind I'm say Georgia Georgia A song of you Comes as sweet and clear As moonlight through the pines Other arms reach out to me Other eyes smile tenderly Still in peaceful dreams I see The road leads back to you I said Georgia, Ooh Georgia, no peace I find Just an old sweet song Keeps Georgia on my mind Other arms reach out to me Other eyes smile tenderly Still in peaceful dreams I see The road leads back to you Georgia, Georgia, No peace, no peace I find Just this old, sweet song Keeps Georgia on my mind I said just an old sweet song, Keeps Georgia on my mind

House of the rising sun

There is a house in New Orleans They call the Rising Sun And it's been the ruin of many a poor boy And God I know I'm one My mother was a tailor She sewed my new bluejeans My father was a gamblin' man Down in New Orleans Now the only thing a gambler needs Is a suitcase and trunk And the only time he's satisfied Is when he's on a drunk,, Oh mother tell your children Not to do what I have done Spend your lives in sin and misery In the House of the Rising Sun Well, I got one foot on the platform The other foot on the train I'm goin' back to New Orleans To wear that ball and chain Well, there is a house in New Orleans They call the Rising Sun And it's been the ruin of many a poor boy And God I know I'm one

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20 hours in America (December 30th, 2005)
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How happy is the blameless vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd;
-Alexander Pope
So I went to see King Kong with Nathan, Stephen, and Greg.  Greg, who in addition to going to Harvard won $6000 in an online poker thing. So King Kong was good, during the epic fight scene I kept laughing because the fight reminded me of bum fights.  Bum  fights are where some guy with a camera tells two bums that he will give ten bucks to the winner of a fight. So there was a blizzard, it was awesome.  I was worried that I would fail to see a blizzard while back here.  A depressing thought, many of the people that I have seen back here I will not see until next summer. So that is fun.

Me and my little sister watched movies last night.  We watched Donnie Darko, Primer, and Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind.  If you know anything about those movies you know how it must have been watching it late into the night.  we started at about 2am and watched the movies as the blizzard rolled on outside we sat in her room watching as the sun overcame the orange haze of the previous night and the light blue took hold of the new day.  When we finished the movies, we didn't want to sleep, so we went to a local coffee shop and went in as the morning crowd shuffled in and had some overpriced hot chocolate and we talked and came back in an hour or two and sat around discussing how there was nothing good left on television, how NBC had fallen from greatness, I remembered how the night before after King Kong, while driving home in the Blizzard, we discussed how GE owned NBC and USA, how that allowed Connan O'Brian to show clips of Walker Texas Ranger with Chuck Norris, and how Chuck Norris' cheif export is pain.  Then we turned on the televisions, me and my sister's matching televisions and DVD/VCRs, well she did not turn on her DVD/VCR since she tuned channels on her TV, but I had to use my VCR to change channels, because my sister had "accidentally" ripped the cable attachment out of the back of my TV, that was a big deal back in the day, the day when that happened.  But we turned on the TV, and the first episode of ER was on.  The series repeated, we had talked about how long it took for TNT to repeat the ER episodes, so it was ironic that today was the day that it repeated, and we watched it.  I realize that most of my memories, most of my strong memories are from staying up into the early morning, oh, just the idea of staying up to watch the sun rise.  Not that they were all good memories, but they are memories: my eternal sunshine of the spotted mind.  So that is my story, of my twenty hours in america, I was awake for 20 hours strait, and it is the title to a West Wing episode, about being lost in Indiana and trying to get out, the place I go to, so I have a place to flee.  Never go to college in a place you like, you need to learn to move on, I like Minnesota too much to go to school here.
and as we wind on down the road (December 28th, 2005) * *
text So over the past few days I got to see a bunch of southwest survivors.  I went sleding with Jeff, Tom, and Johnny at an awsome hill unfortunately at Edina high school on Monday night.  Evan, Colin, Joe Reed, Okney, Stephen Ch., Katie R, Elise, Molly, JJ, Riley, and a few others.  That was awesome.  We had nachos late at night.  Then on Tuesday I slept in and then watched Lawrence of Arabia with my dad.  Then I went to Famous Daves to go dancing.  I danced a little.  I met Andre, Lydia, Jeff, JR, Katie, Elise, Andrew, Claire, and Riley there.  We danced for a while.  I never ran into my little sister, but people had seen her there.  We then went to Pizza Luce in Lydia's van with Andre, Jeff, Claire, and Andrew.  Riley met us there with his people there later.  The waitress was on meth or something.  Then we drove around and I went to Andre's house, watched Die Hard: with a vengence and Andre drove me home.  So it was fun.  Tomorrow is Wednesday, and I have less than a week left here.  I don't get nearly enough time.  I looked at applying to the AHPCRC thing this summer.  I could make $3,500 in nine weeks, and I think I would be a shoe-in.  But after realizing how oppressive these breaks are I think I will not go for it.  I was really on my A-game comedywise tonight, by the way, all writting is make better with wisewise words.  I don't know if I identify with Lawrence, I never identified with Catcher in the Rye like everybody else, which should make me identify with Holden more.  But there is something to admire in Lawrence's humanity.
How many roads must a person walk down? (December 25th, 2005)
Yesterday was festivus, today is chirstmas eve.  I still have to wrap my presents, I still need to get a gift for one family member.  I listened to the rest of Garrison Keillor today, I then listened to an old episode of a Prarie Home Companion, and listening to him talk about lake Woebegon makes me remeber a night last summer.  I came back late to my house one night.  There was a humid hot air hanging around at a time in the morning when such air was usually not present.  I looked into the small window of my parent's bedroom by the back door that was dark.  My muscles ached as I walked up to the back door which I had to go to because I didn't have the key or strenght to open the heavy deadbolt in the front that sheltered us in our quite neighborhood.  A neighborhood where no crime is committed, there were fireworks set off late that night that some local children must have brought in after visiting their aunt in Wisconsin.  An aunt that they had no desire to visit because she didn't have any candy in a dish that stuck together, because adults don't eat candy as they get older.  And as I tought of the local children visiting their aging Wisconsin aunt who only every wanted the best for her nephews, and didn't have candy because she didn't have any children of her own, and her childhood was such a distant memory that she had forgotten the candy that she once searched for when she visited her aunt, when I tought of this I realized that some day I may myself forget this time, and I too would forget to put out candy when children came by.  And even though the night was too damp I stayed out in the light of the alley and the glow of the moon, I stayed out and sat on the bench that my grandmother got for my mother and watched the trees down on the parkway that I could see over my neighbor's garages sway in the hot wind that would come by me and warm my body as I sat there.  I sat there until the sun came up the next day, and the newspaper was delivered, and I read about the local news developments in the city council and how a few soldiers had been wounded several oceans away, but this is was not of my immedient concern, at that moment I was more worried about how I would remember that day, or if it would be lost, carried away on the warm breeze of the new day  And that is the news from lake Woebegon, Where all the women are strong, all the men are good-looking and all the children are above-average.  Merry Holydays, Christmas is as religious as bastille day. Jesus ≠ Santa.
Homegrown Democrat (December 22nd, 2005)
this should be a picture of the cover of creedence gold (the album) Today I took an adventure by walking the two miles to Know Name Records.  I got two creedence records and four cassettes.  I still need to finish my christmas shopping.  Today is festivus eve.  I have been listening to a book on tape (CD) by Garrison Keillor about democracy.  I could have bought the book but Keillor needs to be heard.  If you have ever listened to a Prarie Home Companion you know what I mean.  I played poker and xbox last night with the gang.  August 5th, 2005 is an important date, this is just for my reference.  The Great Gatsby was really about Minneapolis and St. Paul, west egg and east egg, new and old.  I realize that Keillor's belief in what a democrat is explains why I believe in democratic values.  I could have gone carrolling tonight, but I don't want to walk anymore.  I don't want to do anything right now, maybe a movie.  There are several people I should call, people I don't see very often, people whom I want to see, people who I have know for a long time,  people whom I don't see enough, people who's name starts with a J.  But alas, tongiht I must rest, I will listen to my Keillor, I will learn what it means to be a democrat, a Minnesota democrat.  I realize that no president has ever wanted to do harm to the country, no president wanted to do anything than what was in the best interest of the country, but the road to hell is paved with good intentions.
the Eye of the Hurricane (December 21st, 2005)
The flight went well.  There was a couple sitting next to me having a nothing fight.  So I would alternate stepping in to support one of them.  I could tell they were sick of eachother, they argued about if it was too hot or too cold, why the plane went to Duluth after Minneapolis, and why they went through Minneapolis to connect to denver and not Kansas City; he said it was because the earth was curved, and I told him it was not nearly that curved.  I am just hastening the end, think of it as euthanasia for their relationship.  So I got here and found all my chirstmas presents had arrived.  It seems wierd to pick out your own christmas presents, but it is just easier for me to pick out a few movies I like off amazon, we are to a very religious family, we don't go to church... at all, but I don't care, I know how to be a good person, not that I am, but I know how to be one.  I think my family should start celebrating festivus, on December 23rd, we get presents early, can go see movies on christmas day, and Amelia can take the day off of school for religious reasons.  By the by, I would like to give a shout out to Ben Lauer and his family for the ride to the airport, the chips and dip, and the stratego.  Other than that, I will be busy this weekend, and I have a few things planned for my time here.  I am sitting here in my comfortable basement room - of my own design - watching the X-files because I ... don't know, but I think I have seem it before, it is the one about the amish pscho-sexual killers who are immortal/bigendered.  On a lighter note, I am hoping that the awesome present I got for my little sister didn't break on the plane.
Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression, Acceptance, just want it somewhere for reference
shock: the inability of sufficient oxygen distribution
Hypovolemic shock: shock due to loss of blood
Septic shock: shock due to overwhelming infection
anaphylactic shock: shock due to allergens relaxing blood vessels
to the greater glory of god... (December 20th, 2005)
.... may the laws of physics hold for just another 8 hours, after that bring it.  - Frevert out
brothers in arms (December 19th, 2005)
and fog
Shadows and Fog

sic erat in fatis
Okay so I would probably go crazy if break wasn't tomorrow.  So I have to do my physics lab write up tonight and finish up my paper.  I have been fed up with alot of stuff.  Not to mention that late tonight I have a quiz and a gravity lab to do.  I did get to drop MA352, after some effort.  I got a B on my Calc test, decent.  I am not studyinig for the quiz tonight at all, I don't care, nobody else is. I don't have fifteen signatures, and I don't care, what are they going to do, ground my airplane, I want to see Chunder bring it up, I will shove my paddle so far up his ass.  I am a little angry right now if you can tell.  I have been brewing for a while, but now everybody is pissed, and so it is generating this massive wave of aggression.  Sometimes I hope a car hits me lightly while I am carrying a baseball bat so I can just wail on it.  But I have the christmas spirit to keep me from going off the deep end.  I need to watch a chirstmas special tonight.  Ahh, the song Brown Eyed Girljust came on, all will be better in time.  I will do some work tonight, ride to Indy with Lauer, take my seat, make sure I don't get paranoid, and relax.  Question of the day: can you be happy without knowing meancholy, does maximizing one maximize the potential of the other, and is it all relative or is there a set scale, surely if we were put back in the dark ages it would be hell?  I am not that depressed at all, actually I am rather optimistic now, but I was bored in math class today.  My day was going horribly, but then, out of the blue, I get a facebook invite from Jay, good news in a sea of malaise, Jay Ackley, long time friend, not my pledge dad.  So things are looking up, or at least level.
this is ourselves, under pressure  (December 16th, 2005)
this is ourselves
I have been listening to alot of Queen and Dire Straits lately, as well as Dylan, CCR, and of course
heiruspecs, which I credit with me going back to listening to hip hop
Okay, so I was rather busy yesterday.  You see today I ... actually let me start from the beginning.  I was born April 30, 1987 at ... yada yada yada ... I was in a car heading to the Indy (Indianapolis) airport with Chad and Philbrook.  I skipped class, my first time, it was a test prep day and I was rather confident about it.  So after we dropped Philbrook off at the airport we went to Target.  We got back, I started my homework after the Colbert Report.  I finished at about 3:30 in the mornin'.  So I went to bed knowing that I had to do three tests tomorrow, study, and finish my rhetoric paper.  So my carpetbagger of a comp. apps. teacher got confrontational with me about the network being down, he told me I needed to take initiative and solve a massive computer network failure.  So I went back to my room studied for my vector test.  Did okay.  Went back to the room, went to ARA to eat, studied, finished my paper 964 words.  I then went on to Rhetoric.  Went to Physics.  Now here is were things went poorly.  I sat down next to Caleb, asked him if I missed anything at the review yesterday, he told me that the test was yesterday.  I went to my prof, he seemed to be angry.  Class starts, at the end I talk to him about it, he is cool, I will just do it after break.  YI was so excited that I was stoked, and I hate people who use that word.  I have been anxious to fly back since I got back, people are now coming around to my side.  So yeah, that was fun.  Other than that, nothing is really happening.  I have to go now.  Not that this is time related. The pressure is not really getting to me, I survived IB, I can chew glass, basically I learned I am not the only smart person in the world four years sooner, actually more like 8 years ago. Cheers to the quadumvirate, maybe one of us will survive it.
Bad Route (December 15th, 2005)
bad route Okay, so for those of you who enjoyed the Royal Tenenbaums yoy might recognized the painting to the right.  I was in Owen Wilson's apartment over his couch.  It is part of a series created seemingly randomly by a legitimate painter.  It is called if you couldn't guess by it's title "Bad Route".   It probably has some dumb metaphorical meaning, and no I am not just putting down metaphors, just bad ones, that are either too obvious or too complicated that any meaning is really conveyed.  I rather enjoy the painted but can't find a place on the Internet to buy a poster of it.  I need to go to compappy's class, so I will finish this later.
URBAN DICTIONARY (December 12th, 2005)
The tree of knowledge (December 10th, 2005)
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THREE BLIND MICE
The film Dr. No is horrible, Bond doesn't even show up for the first half hour.  What is the deal with that.  Moonraker was a better film!
Let me start out by saying that this is directed at nobody.  Now, I believe in the freedom of speech.  I believe that it is critical to a democracy to function to have a free exchange of information and ideas.  I also believe that freedom of expression is useless without an ability for people to seek out and discover knowledge.  But I also believe that it is reckless of people to just purposely invade someone's privacy, even if that privacy is from a tacit agreement, and then be angered by the information they find.  And if non of this is getting through, just know this, I usually write this very late at night, usually after 3am, just before I go to bed.

On a lighter note, I have the best present ever for my little sister, it is a little expensive, but the cost of the raw materials and the labour I put into it are overwhelmed by the end value of it.  I need to finish that up today.

I am sick and tired, not of anything, I literally am sick and tired.  I just wanted to do this "blog" thing before it gets worse and I go for days without entering anything.

FINALLY, this website is targeted at two groups: Rose-Hulman student and former southwest high students.  If you are not one of these two groups understand that this is not targeted at you, and that you may find the content offensive, just warning you, abandon all hope, ye who enter here, I use alot of literary allusions (references) and that can bother some people.

FINALLY FINALLY, if you find the content of this site offensive you don't understand that it is all in good fun, get a sense of humor or get out of my way, I probably don't like you anyways.

FINALLY, FINALLY, FINALLY, the title of this site is - as you may know - the opening to a tale of two cities.  I am doing this in reference to Minneapolis and Terre Haute, if you don't get it, I don't care, you are not smart enough for me to waste my time on.  And the site was originally entitled Trimalchio in East Egg, the original title to the Great Gatsby, the novel by Minnesota native F. Scott Fitzgerald, who was named after Francis Scott Key, the creater of the Star-Spangled Banner, one of the stupidest national anthems in history.  It is about how Fort McHenry wasn't taken by the british after we tried to invade Canada, for reasons that escape me for the moment.  We have a horrible national anthem.  Not that I am unpatriotic, but just think we could do better.
life is the only game in which in the object is to learn the rules (December 9th, 2005)
Okay so here goes.  I am about to get sick.  Not just a light cough, that I could handle, but a full blown thing with sinuses and everything.  My roommate has it now, and I have felt it coming on.  Now I have delayed its arrival with grapefruit juice and vitamin overdoses, but I will have to succuum to the inevitable.  From what my roommate has experienced I think this will be a long winter.  Well it is snowing outside, as it has been for about twelve hours now, on and off, of course.  But I am a Minnesota.  This storm is no threat to me, I think of it as fun.  I had my "hoodie" unzipped and my hood off.  I felt great, I think I am going to wear shorts tomorrow, oh wait, I am sick, or at least going to be.  So I will 86 that shorts thing.  On the subject of my hoodie.  I put ROSE HULMAN in 2in. iron on letters on my hoodie.  Red for ROSE and black for HULMAN.  I like it, and others are thinking of doing it too.  I have yet to get one signature on my paddle and I need 15 by break (11 days, 17 hours and counting) so that is going to be fun.  I might not even be able to go to the sexy santa party at redlight (Delta Sig's other house thing) which is key to getting signatures since a ton of brothers are going to bet there and I have over sixty signatures left to get.  So I will have to put an update on my website or something.  Then there is that quiz I will have to do on tuesday, a quiz with a ton of stuff on it.  But on a happy note I had the most depressing two classes back to back today.  In English we talked about depression, a very depressing topic  In Physics we talked about how over half the class is failing because the Prof is not teaching us I guess.  By the by, if you have a carbohydrate snack at about 4 in the afternoon you can prevent seasonal onset depression.  Just a thing I remembered today, snow and all.  There is also a direct corrolation between the exposed skin area of a person and the latitude they are from.  I being from a land closer to the north pole than the equator, feel that I am at home in the cold, as I keep in the back of my mind it is 20 degrees colder there than here.  Hautians (residents of Terre Haute, IN) drive poorly in the snow, although the lack of snow plows with their plows down could not have aided their situation.  My rule is this: all Hautians are on meth, at the current moment, unless they prove otherwise to me.  Isn't it strange how the night moves, that is a good song.
A Prairie Home Companion with Ben Frevert (December 7th, 2005)

I'll hear that old piano

from down the avenue

I smell the cold

and I look around for you

oh my sweet

sweet old somebody

coming through that door

it's Saturday

the band is playing

honey

could we ask for more?
So my day of having more stuff to do that I thought I could contend with is over.  I passed my pledge quiz last on monday and yesterday and made my paddle.  I did a nice job despite having done is so poorly.  Jesus borrowed my silver paint that my pledge dad, Jay, got me.  I didn't get it back until 9pm and had to rush that.  But I am an offical pledge since me and Jesus did our official pledging on Monday.  I have managed to fit all of my pledge stuff, all of my school stuff, and all of my personal stuff into these few days.  So now I feel a bit of relief.  I have been feeling better since I realized what torque was in physics, I know it sounds wierd, but it is what gave me a bit of confidence.  I am trying to decide what to give my sister for christmas, I get one of the things, so I am not being a perfect angel.  Tonight I will start the pentumvirate fitness program, we will go down to the SRC four times a week: two days of weight training, two days of cardio.  We are all out of shape, and I am here to pump, clap, you up.  If you don't get the at least decade old SNL reference just know you are not a full person.  I watched I heart Huckabees and found it great as usual.  Bob created a facebook group because we both stayed on the same floor of the same dorm at Madison, just strange that out of all the places, me and him were in the same place somewhere else.  Dante didn't let equivocators into hell so why would we let intelligent designers into our classrooms.  So when I went to the Delta Sigma Phi pledge meeting tonight I gave Chunder (pledge director) a skinny piece of unsanded wood with ΔΣΦ in blue sharpie and asked if he had a drill I could use really quick.  He was shocked and bought it completely.  I told him it was my baton (french pronounciation) and that I was sorry that I wrote in blue not green (frat color).  So that was fun.  I showed him my real paddle, a nice simple paddle, I will put up a picture tomorrow.  I should get to sleep, although I don't have class until 12:40pm, so I am not in a rush, I like the night life.  I don't like the morning.  I have been running on fumes, I need to decompress.  Thinking of getting a small tattoo: IB, a triagle, /V\, and a peace sign.
 Oh, the weather outside is frightful, but the fire is so delightful (December 5th, 2005)
tree So me and roomy bought a christmas tree.  It is three feet tall.  It is strange, lsat year I didn't feel the chirstmas spirit.  I guess there was that one thing, and my family celebated it in January, like we were Greek Orthodox or something.  But now that they know that I know they check this site I will stop bad mouthing them.  It is kind of an invasion of my me space, but the internet is free and so I won't slow down.  So last night we went to this synagogue because we had already done lines of coke off the bible and the torah looked good.  Anyways, people are thinking that I am desperate to get out of here because of this countdown clock I have mounted in my room that is counting down to when my flight leaves.  But really I am now realizing how much I like it here, and I 86ed my Madison app.  But really I am feelin' a little overwhelmed right now, and am glad that my trip will be 20 hours less.  I think that I am running in survival mode.  I have been doin' stuff all ad hoc lately and I think it is the only reason my immune system is getting by.  You see, when your body goes into survival mode you are able to somehow just step over disease, because I should have picked something up between Madison and my room-eye.  But I have also just found out that the southwest mill is at work, but I don't know why Nathan didn't bring it up, no, that shouldn't make sense.  I found a Heiruspecs CD on the campus network, a big surprise considering they are a Minneapolis group, so I am listening to that now.  I am gettin' into hip hop an rap more now.  i guess I just found something in it as an art form.  The key is to understand that every art form has its hacks, and that it is really just poetry with music set to it.  I ordered some good Woody Allen movies off amazon.  I am looking forward to getting Shadows and fog, a movie.  So I sit here, feeling like Charlie Brown with my little chirstmas tree, with a ton of work to be done tomorrow, passing the pledge quizz, pledge initation, making my paddle, and then that little thing about going to school, by the way, the words you're looking for are "oh good grief."
flight 499, indianapolis to minneapolis, 1 hour 52 minutes(December 1st, 2005)
I am booked on northwest flight 499 at 7:22pm on December 20th to Minneapolis.  I have decided that I will in the stead of  taking a 21 hour bus ride, take a plane flight that takes less than 2 hours.  I don't have a fear of planes.  Well a slight one since 9/11, I was fine about it before.  I guess after a discussion in rhetoric and comp. I realized that I have not flown since I went to New York and went up the towers a month beforehand.  But I am not really worried.  Anyways, I am doing a makeup pledging and quiz.  I have to play catch-up.  I am not worried about my flight to Minneapolis because it is 499, flights called 499 don't crash, my flight back here, 626, is a little suspect.  I don't worry about this stuff, I don't find comfort in the physics of it but the math: the chances of dying in a plane crash are negligible.  This time I won't run into the problem of unwittingly becoming a lookout for drug deals, it's a funny story, tell ya later.
 
12 oz. mouse is going to have at least 2 more episodes, my roomy downloaded all 6 episodes so I am going to have a marathon tonight.  It is the best show ever.

THIS IS VERY FUNNY,
IT IS A COLLEGE ESSAY
and see this
exile? California and Me  (November 27th, 2005)
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253 days,
9 hours,
+/- 40 minutes
I painted myself into a corner.  I wanted to stay in town for Saturday night.  I was greedy.  So I didn't ride back with Sam Green on Saturday morning, an action that I still have no clue why he would do.  So I stayed.  I went to a concert with Jeff, Andrew, and Stephen.  While trying to find Nathan's house in Edina there was a very ironic converation that only me and Jeff found funny about breast feeding, no, it is not dirty.  But also I will not be back in the Haute until monday evening.  I am taking a greyhound back to spend three weeks in school only to return again.  I need to write an email to Gavin because I remembered that thing during poker while talking to Lydia.  I am holding my life together with both hands, and people know I am ticklish.  Just thought that would be cleaver.  My computer is not keepin' it real because I forgot to put on a firewall, so I will have to re-image it when I get back, that is why I wrote some of this stuff here.  Oh, by the way, a Greyhound in Cali went off a cliff and two people died, but on the other side of things, I have a 21 hour greyhound trip ahead of me.  Then three weeks until I get to fly home, NorthWest Airlines, no stops, I feel like a tool, after what they did to the union, most people don't realize how many people died  for labour rights.  The weekend was created from the blood of unrecognized workers, who were dismissed as communists, well there is Labour day, so I guess I am cool.  Chad just told me that formal pledging is tomorrow night, and the world came a tumbling down. peace

By the by, I realized that season two of the West Wing is my favorite, the episode Noel really speaks to me, and the Stackhouse Filibuster, two catherdrals, and Shibboleth.  Altought, season three does have Posse Comitatus (see below).
Thanksgiving? Law and Order  (November 25th, 2005)
turkey

Before you can ask for god's forgiveness, you must ask for your fellow man's.  253 days later.  But that is now what thanksgiving is for.  Thanksgiving is for what you are thankful for.  I am thankful for... I don't know...but I am doing well, so I guess just life in general.  I have been spending a lot of time with my little sister in the past few days.  Just sit around watching Mystery Science Theatre 3000, she saw "Shaun of the Dead" and thought it was hilarious, a notion that gives me hope.  Today I heard a story about some Cheetahs cubs in Ethiopia that some US troops came across.  They had been badly abused and one of them was mostly blind.  It is things like that make me hate people, it is things like this that loose me my self respect for the third world, and gives me credence to my sense of moral superiority.  Not to mention more reports of female circumcision, a horrible practice.  But then rays of hope part the clouds, if only for a moment.  The U.S. army is going into Ethiopia to rescue the cubs, human blood may be shed over the well being of two innocent animals, and maybe we shall begin to act responsibly.  The world is a wonderful place, and worth fighting for, I agree with the second part, and yes, I know it is from "SE7EN" it is an allusion, and no, I am not going all unibomber on society, just ranting on evil.

         Ιασων Jason, greek for "to heal" (November 22nd, 2005)
madi For the first time in many...years, me and my cousin Jason hung out together.  To put this in perspective me and him were inseperable until 6th grade.  I had a great time.  It is suprising that even if people spend time apart they still have something in common.  I put a picture of the Madison capital in the sidebar because I put the Batres story in last time.  I like the was their city flows to the capital.  But back to Jason, it was good seeing him, we haven't done much lately, and it was good realizing what we have in common.  I also received an email from Jay about my fake online encyclopedia entry about myself, an entry that has been copied - it is under the GNU public licence - many times and translated into french, german, english, spanish, and portuguese.  A French-German-English salute to me, I don't expect anybody to get this arcane reference to a book for the 70's on meta-axiomatic logic theory.
BY THE BY Live from Minneapolis, it's Saturday night! (November 20th, 2005)
Mr. Batres, my 11th grade spanish teacher, taught my little sister's class while Mr. Townsend was out sick. Batres as it turns out never had a teaching licence, that is why he didn't come back senior year.  So I was taught Spanish by a un-licenced Guatemalan political refugee.  cool !?! So this is what happened.  Late Wednesday night I was talking with Gavin on AIM and I invited myself to stay with him at Madison for a few days.  So I haphazardly had Sam Green from BSB 2 drop me off in Madison instead of Minneapolis.  So I spent 40 awesome hours in Madison, WI.  I learned how to ice-skate, a thing that I never had learned how to do, despite being Minnesotan.  It was exciting almost missing my greyhound bus.  Madison is an awesome town, I regret not stopping by more people to see them, but there is always next week and the breaks that follow.  The Greyhound bus driver was pissed.  I got home, watched "Equilibrium" with my little sister, whom I realize is more like me all the time, too bad for her.  I know this page may seen poorly formated, I am using a new editor, having lost Dreamweaver when I redid my computer, at least I get a chance to write something.  So to sum it all up, had a great time in Madison, hope to see people over break, I need to get some rest, although last break my attempt at that was fruitless, although very very much enjoyed. "... tengo una hija", "tienes una hija?", "No, no, no, una hermana, nada hija" oh, Batres.



Favorite songs of the weekend:

One of these nights Eagles

Dust in the Wind Kansas

Wild World
Cat Stevens

in the out door (November 14th, 2005)
Sorry that I have been derelict in my duty.  My computer double faulted and I had to take it down to IAIT to get it redone. So I have not been able to load Dreamweaver yet, and so I have to do this is html code in notepad.  I know I go to Rose, but I don't like doing it this way, it makes me angry, but just about everything grinds my gears nowadays.  I am in the middle of finals, well, actually, I have done 1 of 4, but two of them are jokes, thanks to Bergseid.  Thanks to finals, Rose has come to a dead stop. So instead of studying for finals I have been reading up on Minnesota political history.  Floyd B. Olsen, the first governor from the Farmer-Labour party, was a good guy.  He was governor in Minnesota at the same time Huey Long was at his height of power in Louisiana.  I can understand why David Strom wanted to rename a road named after him for Regan.  Gov. Olsen created a minimum wage, a progressive state tax, social security, environmental conservation, equal pay for women, rights for labour to collectively bargain, and "nationalizing" Minnesota's utilities and grain distribution.  He proposed all of this before the new deal and the great depression.  Wish I could have brought it up when I talked with him last year.  I am out of what I was in: out of the frying pan and into the fire in other words.   By the way, I no longer have fish in my fish tank, I gave them away, and poured a container of isopropyl alcohol to kill stuff off. fin

Mayor
Rybak 63%
McLaughlin 37%

Park Board
Kummer 51%
Stone 49%

City Council
Benson 91%
Iverson 9%
election day: mid-mid-terms (November 9th, 2005)
So yesterday was election day in Minneapolis. The results are in:
I wanted McLaughlin to win the Mayor's race, both are liberal DFLers (democrats), since Minneapolis doesn't allow party nominations every year it is which liberal will win
I wanted Stone to win the Park Board race. I served on the HPDL board of directors with him, he is a good guy, supported my disc golf course, he lost by 300 votes, that is a shame.
I wanted Benson to win the City Council seat. I met with him several times, he is a good guy, he has a lock on this seat, glad he won.
The incumbant won in every one of these races. If you know your recent political history or basic math you know what happened 4 years ago. Rybak defeated the long held incumbant, Mayor Sharon Sayles Belton, in the primary on september 11th, 2001. Had I not missed by bus, and had not my mom needed to vote in that primary, I would not have exerience the story as it progessed over MPR (NPR). I wanted Rybak to win back then, but he didn't do the reforms he promised, the City Council has been weak in the recent years, he had the ability.


12 oz. mouse (November 7th, 2005)
I hate almost every show on the cartoon network. I don't believe in free speech or laughter. I think it is for whimps and communists. But there is this show that is of great comedic value, on the level of Dante's the Devine Comedy. The show is basically pure random, has structure only in its use of the english language and a set of reoccuring character. The brilliance of the show comes from finding the slight cohesive element of the show. I am the only person on the floor who has seen all four released episodes, but like I did with the West Wing, I shall spread the gospel. The show is on late Sunday and Thursday. The show is great, you should watch it. I think this is the future. I am assuming that people who like to sit in awe of stupidity and all of its splendor. Watch or die. Don't say money. Don't look in the ice box. Don't look under your bed.

There is a feeling I get when I look to the west (November 6th, 2005)
and my spirit is crying of leaving. The break can not get here fast enough. I will be back thursday 17th in the evening and will leave sunday 27th in the morning. This weekend is father's weekend at Rose, so most people's father comes in and most events are centered around that. Since my father did not come I spent my time watching a ton of West Wing. It was not horrilbe, it is not like I am going to write a country song about it, mostly just boring. I went to IHOP agian last night really late, good time, as always someone new to tell stories to, it stormed : ) I found out that Jeff is not going to be home long for thanksgiving, which sucks, but oh well. yard duty at the house today sucked, but it was only a little over an hour. I did horribly on my math test, I can just feel the failure. The Econ test was easy. I am thinking of buying the soundtrack to "Broken Flowers", I know it is a kind of a chick flick, but I liked that music, so I think I am going to do that. If you have three minutes, READ THIS!